33 AND FEELING LIKE I'M FALLING APART!

I don't know about anyone else but does it seem like you hit '30 and everything just goes downhill? I am very happy except with my body! I don't even eat any amount near what I used to and I try to eat healthy as well and it just doesn't matter--I AM FAT and getting FATTER! My GYN discovered I had a thyroid condition which is a BIG contributor to weight gain...however, I have been on thyroid medication for two months now, eating right and exercising and all for nothing! I have not lost one pound! I am a month behind now on getting pregnant b/c I seriously could not see adding another 25 or so pounds to where I am now nor do I think it would be healthy for the baby! What is a girl to do? I told my husband I was going to be fat and childless for the rest of my life if something didn't give. Of course he loves me for who I am but I am just miserable. I actually look like I am already pregnant when I look in the mirror! Maybe you could call it 'wanting to be pregnant' pounds I have gained...I just don't know but it has got to stop.

I pray that God gives me the strength and with his help I can really do it! And, if he wants us to have a baby and I give it my best, he will see it through...just disappointing.

There is some good news out of all of this, though. The nurse called me today and I am on too much thyroid and they are backing me down to the smallest dose there is....kind of pointless that I have to take it but it really does give me a bit more energy so I guess I really do need it!

I don't think I have really gained that much since the wedding...maybe five pounds or so, but pray for me...i am having some last photos taken in my dress before I put it away forever. I have been thinking about it for months now and am going to do it in September. Hopefully it will be a nice morning and we can find a really cool location....preferably with leaves that I can play in(since our theme was centered around the fall and was in October). Pray that I can drop a few pounds by then so my pictures will be pretty!

HAND SURGERY--IT'S SET

Well, it's official...August 21st I get to have this mole on my hand removed. It is under the skin but Dr. Gelnar said, it is a mole, not a freckle! It is also a precursor for melanoma--YEAH, just what I wanted to hear. So, we will take it out. I just pray it will turn out benign since I have had it for six years now! I am a little concerned about the removal process...it is right by a vein in the palm of my hand and right where my pen rests when I write! I am glad I am not typing full-time anymore...that would stink!

Oh well, we get these things taken care of and we move on,right?! My husband was real sweet, though(he thinks he needs to take off work that day). I told him there was no need but he says, "we'll see." That means in his mind, "i am taking off and there is nothing you can do about it." He has my best interests at heart, I know and just wants to make sure I am okay. The worst part will be getting the local anesthetic injected into my hand. I am glad I am not scared of needles but I don't like pain either. Although, I must say that after my gallbladder surgery, I thought I would be a major wimp and I wasn't. I was in pain and I expressed it but I didn't take any pain medication...just the anti-inflammatory, which does count as a 'pain' med and I did real well. Will be a piece of cake...UMMM, cake sounds good right about now.

SKIN CANCER--ugh!

Great, just what I needed....found out today that I might have a skin cancer on my hand! Did you know when you have a freckle that appears on the palm of your hand or on the bottom of your foot that it could be cancer and probably is? I had someone say that to me a long time ago but have had people that I know have noticed mine and have never seemed concerned. Today, the girl I work with got really freaked out over it and sent me to the office adjoining ours, as he is a general surgeon. He will look at it tomorrow and let me know if he needs to cut it out of my hand. Oh boy, just what I wanted!
Please pray that this is not the case....I know I am a bit predisposed to some form of cancer and if it had to be this little incident in my lifetime just once, I can live with that, but now I am a little concerned as well! I guess it is good that we find out about it now b/c if I want to have a baby I don't want to have this going on at the same time!
Know your body and check your skin real good...you never know what might pop up!

I JUST STARTED BLOGGING

SO...AFTER READING SO MANY BLOGS FROM PEOPLE I KNOW, I DECIDED I SHOULD START. I REALLY WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON WITH DONNIE AND I IN OUR LIFE TOGETHER...EVEN IF IT SEEMS AT TIMES THAT IT IS NOT VERY EXCITING! I REALLY LIKE HOW BLOGGING HELPS YOU REALLY GET TO KNOW SOMEONE'S PERSONALITY ESPECIALLY IF YOU DIDN'T REALLY GET TO KNOW THEM VERY WELL WHEN THEY WERE AROUND OR WHEN YOU KNEW THEM IN SCHOOL, ETC.

ANYWAY, ENOUGH OF THAT BORING INTRO...I AM SOOOO ENJOYING THE MARRIED LIFE AND MY HUSBAND! AND...WE TOOK OUR CHILD (FOUR-LEGGED ONE BY THE NAME OF BEAR) TO THE PET CAFE ON SATURDAY. IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN AND YOU LOVE YOUR FURRY FRIENDS, YOU SHOULD GO. IT IS OFF I-35 AND ROBINSON IN NORMAN BY THE BRAUM'S. WE ARE FRIENDS WITH THE OWNERS AND IT IS THE CUTEST PLACE EVER. IT IS A PET SHOP WITH A JAVA DAVE'S ADJOINING SO YOU CAN HAVE YOUR REFRESHMENTS AND YOUR PET HAS AN INVITATION TO SOME TASTY TREATS AS WELL. BEAR LOVED IT A LOT! THEY HAVE BEEN HAVING PET ADOPTIONS ON SATURDAYS AND GARY AND DUSTY, THE OWNERS HAD JUST ADOPTED A LITTLE SCHNAUZER THAT DAY...BEAR AND THE LITTLE GIRL JUST FELL IN LOVE(FUNNY SEEING AS HOW SHE IS A SCHNAUZER AND HE IS A LARGE HUSKY). IT WAS CUTE...I WILL HAVE TO POST THE PICTURES WHEN I GET HOME TONIGHT! VISITING THE PET CAFE IS A MUST.

CHANGING THE SUBJECT A LITTLE....
HAVE ANY OF YOU NOTICED THAT IT IS HARD TO FIND GOOD WORKERS THESE DAYS?! PEOPLE SEEM TO BE SO LAZY AND DON'T WANT TO WORK...OR THEY ARE UNRELIABLE...OR THEY WANT WAY TOO MUCH MONEY FOR THE AMOUNT OF WORK THEY ARE WILLING TO DO! I AM STILL FAIRLY YOUNG BUT WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO THE OLD DAYS WHERE YOUR JOB WAS ALL ABOUT INTEGRITY AND YOU GAVE YOUR BOSS YOUR ABSOLUTE BEST!!!

WELL, OFF MY SOAPBOX NOW AND ONTO, WELL, I GUESS HOME FOR NOW...